While I emotionally deal with yet another guy’s criticism for my being a mother and a Webcam Model, I have found myself questioning the ethics behind it. Am I a Webcam Model and a mother, because I have convinced myself that it is okay, or do I really honestly think that it is ethically right?
I had a meeting with a lawyer recently. My ex-partner isn’t happy because I want to move our daughter an hour away from him. I know this isn’t great for him, but I can’t spend my life revolving around wherever he wants to live. I have very good reasons for wanting to move, and I won’t be preventing him from seeing our daughter at all. He’s still planning to take me to court, so I booked a meeting. Between telling me that I definitely have the right to move an hour away and not to worry, we discussed the possibility of my job coming up, if this dispute did go to court. My Ex doesn’t know what I do, and I don’t want him to know either. I tell people who love me and don’t judge me. He doesn’t love me, he will judge me, and he will tell lots of people who don’t love me and who will judge me. I don’t need this in my life. Apparently it probably won’t come up in court, so I don’t really need to worry. However she said to me that what I am doing is legal and although it is not child appropriate, my daughter doesn’t know. Therefore, a judge wouldn’t deem my job as inappropriate.
When this guy came into my chat room on Myfreecams and commented about my poor child, I felt insecure. I usually cam during the day while she is at school, but occassionally, if i’m in the mood, I come on in the evening. This was one of those evenings. I thought about how she was tucked up in bed fast asleep, and I questioned myself. Then I realised that if I had a husband, I would be going to bed with him at night and having sex (every night, of course). It wouldn’t be appropriate for a child to know about two adults having sex in the other room, any more then it would be appropriate for a child to know that their mother is masturbating in the other room in-front of a lap top. I think it is a good comparison. I keep sex a secret from my child just like every other parent does. Other parents have sex. I masturbate. I keep the door locked.
I’m not sleeping around with lots of different men, and i’m not going out and partying all night all the time. I just masturbate in my bedroom on my own. I let people watch on the internet. I make an income. I have a vagina just like 50% of the population of the world, and I enjoy rubbing it. It’s our culture which makes is so taboo, but its not wrong.
I had a moment of insecurity, but I’ve picked myself up. I’m a good mum.
Oh I made a new video. It’s really dirty.